"Tell me how you feel about this
Who would I want if I would wanna live
I worked hard and sacrificed to get what I get
Ladies, it ain't easy bein' independent"
Girl power! Weh. Anyways back to the ~serious~ part, so I've recently purchased and moved into my own condo (YAY) and I've been living alone for almost a year now. I have been cooking my own food, cleaning, paying the bills and just taking care of myself all on my own. Most people seem to find this intimidating, but out of all the things that I have been through in my 19 years of existence, I've found this experience the most challenging yet fun thing I have ever partaken in my life! Yeah, you get a lot of perks and have tons of fun but there are also sooo many disadvantages to living alone. Heres some of my highlights and pretty much lowlights (anodaw?)
1. It gets pretty lonely.
Lagi akong mag-isa, literally. I came from a family where we would always spend time together and visitors would be in and out of the house, it was a drastic change for me. I was so used to running to my siblings or parents if I had something good or bad happen to me, and now when things happen to me, I have no one to tell. But through this experience, I got to know myself more. I've learned not to depend on other people, whether it be for simple things like waking you up in the morning or to something like getting your heart broken and not having anyone to cry on (</3 CHOS). I've learned to value the time that I have to myself, that its pretty fun to be alone! I actually get a lot of things done now, I get to go to the gym, watch my favourite shows, discovers new things about myself like how much I love cooking and writing. I get to finally finish the books that I've never even gotten half way through before.
2. Money, money, money.
Aaminin ko, sobrang magastos akong tao. I am not a wise spender. I'm not saying that I'm rich, its just I would blow my money on things that weren't exactly important during that time. I would always eat out, go shopping and treat my friends that sometimes I would forget to pay my bills (big NO NO) and just wasting my cash on useless items. Since I live alone, everything that I spend is my own, I can't run to mommy or daddy anymore if I want to buy those pretty shoes or catch a movie with my friends. So now what I do is the magical thing called ~budgeting~. Instead of eating out with my friends I practice cooking and we just stay at home and have a nice dinner and play boardgames, its cheaper and more fun! Even from the simple things like not letting my air conditioner on all day and just opening my windows and breathing in the fresh Manila air! (HAHAHA).
I have always been dependent on people. Not just my family but also my friends or schoolmates. Sad to say I was the type of person that couldn't accomplish anything without the help of other people. My mom and my assistant would always go with me EVERYWHERE, to taping, school the mall, you name it. I would always have someone cleaning up after me and my mom would "baby" me. Don't get me wrong, I'm definitely not a spoiled child, I wasn't the type to brat around (yeah right). Since I've been living alone its been a total 360 from that. Not only am I responsible for myself I am now also responsible for the people who work for me, I have to pay them on time and make sure I treat them the proper way. I have to make sure I have food to eat and not only that but maintain my own condo. Ever since I've learned to value my work and school more, since before aaminin ko, I would take everything for granted always thinking that I would still have something to look forward to in the next few months or years. Now I have to take everything into my own hands and make sure I do good not only in my work but also school to ensure myself of the future that I dream of.
Don't get me wrong living alone at this age isn't such a bad thing. Yes, there are times where I just want to move back in with my parents but then I always think "Why should I go back, when I'm already moving forward?". Its not for everyone, but I love living alone now, its one of the most serene things that I have at this moment. Yes it may not be a big thing in the Philippines, seeing as its not really part of our culture, but then again its the modern times and wouldn't you want a place to call your own?